If I’ve seemingly fallen off the grid, both in the virtual sphere and in real life, it’s because I’ve been tending to the small human being that I created. The fact that I have been otherwise unproductive has taken some people by surprise.
|Backseat feedings required|
I’m sorry, this tiny life force is a blob of flesh who is unable to move without assistance, and who is awake and in need of something at any given moment of the day. Completing a load of laundry or a sink of dishes without him screaming is really a luxury no longer to be taken for granted. This is exactly why it has confused me that people from all walks of life, including other mothers, have asked me what I will be doing now that I am a stay-at-home-mom. Apparently, the title conjures an image of me as a Stepford Wife.
Though none of this should need an explanation, somehow society has wrongly determined that raising a child isn’t “enough.” I take no position on whether it is better to stay home or go back to work. It’s a parent’s unique choice. However, if you choose to stay home, remind yourself: You do not NEED to be doing ANYTHING else! (If you want to, and are a better multi-tasker than I am, more power to you!) For God’s sake, you are shaping a person for the rest of his/her life! If day in and day out, you “accomplish” nothing more than keeping that baby alive and thriving, congratulations!
|Hours spent with this thing|
As my son becomes more independent, yes, I will start working on other projects and possibilities…because I will have this little thing that I don’t have now: FREE TIME. But right now, he is my job. I chose that. I tried for months to conceive him, crying with each negative pregnancy test before the good news came. And today, I make the most of every moment, every awful diaper blow-out, every precious smile, every opportunity we have to communicate with each other in any way. I put thought into his life, which is not to say I am an over-paranoid, over-controlling, Tiger Mom. I am loving this time now, because I know I won’t always have it. He is my intention until he spreads his wings and flies away. And if this were my last day on Earth, yes, I would be happy with the way I am spending it.